I Passed My NCLEX Exam (written 8/3/2008)

I got good news, I passed my NCLEX exam. I took it Friday morning before my Dr.'s appt. I walked out of that test feeling stupid, I just knew I failed. The worst part is waiting 2 days for the results . So I am officially, Mrs Sandra RN. My excitement was short lived b/c I started thinking about my surgery Thursday. I found myself feeling sorry and becoming anger all over again, until I watched ER on television. There was a 25 yr old female,who went to the ER 4 time for treatment, & was sent hm each time with little interventions done. The last time, she was so sepsis, there was nothing anyone could do to save her life. She have 3 small children. It made me really realize how valuable life is. Our time here is so short, we have to live everyday like it's our last one. I remember thinking, What kind of person am I? Here I am complaining about having surgery and how I will look. I started thinking GOD for what it is b/c I could be that girl, or have a malignant tumor instead of a benign one. My GOD is a good GOD and I know he will not forsake me, he carried me 2 far 2 leave me now. I have always prayed for 2 GOD 4 2 things:1. To let me live long enough 2 raise my own babies.2. To please, please not let bury any of my babies.So I guess I need 2 start looking at all the positive things, like; l will finally get days at home alone.After saying all that, I am still devastated about having a tumor that will alter my face for months. On top of everything, I finally (today), told my mom about my tumor. I didn't go into great details, b/c she worry about everything. She has uncontrolled HTN and is still mourning over my brother, who was murdered March 30,2008. All of us is still grieving, it only been 5 mths since my brother passed, I was still in school, that was hard. Everyone pray for me to be mentally, emotionally, and physically o.k., I will keep you posted